I am in that sweet spot. I’m so proud of myself for being brave enough to tell me the truth. The truth has set me free and I am so happy. I know how to be happy single that has never been my problem. I love myself and enjoy my own company. I have peace of mind and I do not stress about what is going to happen from day to day because I have trusted God to bring me this far I can certainly trust God to go on alone. At this point in my life I am not even interested in dating. I am so happy with just me and God. I just want to be free. Don’t want to walk on egg shells or consider anyone else’s anything. Life is not that hard. I stayed in some situations in my life way past the expiration date. The red flags were thrown early and my Pollyanna ass just stepped over the flag and said let me fix you. You have never been loved by me, my love will set you free. Ha! Ha! Ha! Now I understand what they mean when they say “Hopeless romantic. I do realize that it goes much deeper than that. I have recently learned about my trauma brain and trauma bonding. This information has helped me to understand why I or anyone that has been traumatized continues to choose people who will continue to traumatize us. Knowledge is powerful in that if used it is transformative. So, I said all that to say, I am ready for the next level of healing. This time I will be dealing with the trauma of the domestic violence. Last time I dealt with childhood sexual trauma and rape. Every relationship except one has been abusive in one way or another. It angers me that I have to UNDO WHAT HAS BEEN DONE UNTO ME. But it must be done so that my traumatic DNA will not be passed on to future generations of my family. I get now. I have made great sacrifices for my healing and my main motivation is my family. I didn’t want my Grandchildren’s legacy to be one of trauma. I had to protect the only way I knew how. That was for me to be the example. I had to destroy the curse of pathology and dysfunction. I had to speak up and it cost me a lot. But I would do it again. God called me to bring awareness to the devastating affects of domestic violence and mental illness. Some have said, how can you be an advocate and educator when you were in a dv relationship? I believe that my experience is what gives me the passion to help others. When we know better we do better. I just want us to support each other in our healing. In my experience people do not know how to help a victim of Domestic violence. Some say mind your business or they keep going back they must like it.