Before therapy I was unaware of my triggers and could not escape the insidious cycles with their regretful aftermath.  In therapy I learned to identify my triggers, accept the reasons, and learn new coping skills (that have to practiced) to recover quicker.

The triggers have not gone away but after therapy I am more able to prepare when possible.  If I know a situation will cause me to be triggered I can use skills practiced in therapy by planning ahead.

Once triggered one skill I use often is to ground myself by observing my surroundings and telling my mind and body, “that was then, this is NOW.  I am NOT a vulnerable little girl anymore.  I am NOW an adult able to protect myself.  I may have a memory of a past traumatic event that “feels like” what is happening now but the BIG difference is the tools my therapist gave me.

Therapy was about doing the work to know self, accept self and to love self.

If therapy is truly working self acceptance will be your anchor while healing.  This was the essential ingredient I needed to heal.  Understanding self empowered me to change.

I will be talking about triggers for a while because after therapy the work continues. Knowledge is not truly powerful until applied.

I was a depressed teenager  with three children. I was already predisposed to depression before I even pushed through backwards out of my depressed mother’s womb. I fought hard for this happiness and I just want help other young mothers suffering from depression while trying to do the best they can for themselves and their children. #IwasJustThinking

I forgave my mother long before I went to therapy. During therapy is when I started to understand her. After therapy is when I was able to have compassion. #TherapyWorks

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Thanks God.  On the days when we can see the vision clearly but it seems so far away the universe always gives us that push we need to keep going. Giving up is not an option. Our soul bears witness to the purpose.

I have been working on my book non-stop since January of this year. 7 years ago the first draft was printed.  Discouragement tried it’s hand today.

I purchased some classes to help me understand the self publishing process.   The part on the five step process of Editing made me pause.  That could take months.  it felt like a kick in the gut, at first, but after much prayer I am pressing forward.

Love, Peace and “the souls’ poet” mozayik