Before Therapy I would go into a severe depression when I felt that I had disappointed someone. Some selfish person would try and guilt trip me into seeing things their way for what ever reason. I would not speak up. I would dwell on the experience. I felt bad because they told me I should feel bad.
I would fill my mind with negative thoughts and spiral into a deep depression. The guilt tripper would not even know the amount of damage or the effect of my self inflicted abuse. I just could not cope with knowing someone was not pleased with me and go out of my way to either avoid that person or find a way to mend the energy between us.
After therapy I realize the best way to cope is to do what is right for me. I can deal with the disappointment of others about me not doing what they see as best. I can allow that to be their truth.
I am okay with me and I am enough. I am brave and courageous. My faith in God keeps me strong and resilient.
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Reblogged this on The Souls' Poetry and commented:
Since this post I have learned that this people pleasing behavior is called co-dependency. Girl, get some help so we can stop the bleeding and start the healing process for generations to come.
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