she bled out onto the paper
and threw against the wall the tall tall
order to be perfect
she said take me as i am or take nothing at all
she cried unto mother god to please hear her call
she didn’t don’t want to fall
into the valley of despair
the dam wear and tear
on her psyche
to meet the image of her they have
she said i am a real person
with a soul
all i am trying to do is fix these holes
by mozayik ‘the souls’ poet’
4.27.19 6.16p
fuck you i am done apologizing for the side affects of my trauma
if you don’t understand, oh well
that is your karma
judge me
hate me
ridicule me
that is your loss
sorry you lacked compassion
i have overcome so much that today
i am not allowing your ignorance
to make me feel less
than awesome
i am a phenomenal woman
fuck you i am not apologizing for being me
by mozayik ‘the souls’ poet
4.27.19 4.29p
being alone sucks when the clouds start to turn gray
and the memory of abuse is alive and well
the memories laugh and taunt
the breath though saves me
between the inhale and exhale
is where God restores my soul
I remember just like the last breath I took
this feeling of lonely will pass
I remember I am love
love is my super power
the next inhale comes to straighten my spine
the exhale releases all the indecision and doubt
the between the exhale and inhale
reminds me of my purpose
all my tears are stored
in between the inhale, the exhale,
the space where I release the energy that has
clogged my spiritual pores
in between the inhale and exhale
the space where my soul speaks
a language only God understands
by mozayik ‘the soul’ poet’
8.21.18
give in to the belief that you are unique
with talents and gifts all your own
no one can do it like you
no one but you,
can make your dream come true
whatever mistakes we make are only a tool
to purge and cut,
to help make us rule
better we can learn from them and move on
don’t wallow in self-pity and doubt
use your errors as a spring board to break out
bounce back to the positive
give in to the belief that you are someone special
grab it, take hold of it and don’t let it go
speak it, chant it, pray it, say it until you convince your own soul you are somebody for the world to behold
by mozayik “the souls’ poet”
circa 1996
My love is an inexhaustible stream
given at birth for me to give away
the only power i have
the only thing i could ever control
is my choice to love
i don’t have to chase it
or look for it
i am it
so i decide to love
right now
this second
giving you my love makes my love overflow
when i give it to you god gives me more
the only reason to be alive is to love
any other reason and you have chosen an unnecessary chore
excerpt from “the souls’ poetry” by mozayik “the souls’ poet” pg 67
Fear robs us of so much. Today I have talked about love, thought a lot about love and read a lot about people wanting but fearing love. It seems we all want love but we are afraid to love anyone cause we don’t want to hurt.
Yet people like me get criticized for just wanting to experience love in all its facets. I am love so why wouldn’t I want to give this love away? All we have really, to give, is love. You can judge me and call me kooky. But while you living in fear I am living in love.
I may get “hurt” 25 more times before I die but at least I lived and loved. I may have 6 more relationships that fail (I hope not, that is why I am doing my work in therapy) but at least I have created some great memories and loved some wonderful people.
I don’t regret any love I have given and I will love the next lover with as much fervency as the last.
This love is mine to give and it is inexhaustible. At the end of my life you can say “She loved”
Just Love somebody damn it!!! Love or Fear which will you choose?
#GirlGetYouSomeHelp
#loveisallthatmatters
her heart opens to me
her mind is a wealth of intellect
her strong hands removes all of my pain
her sensitive eyes take my breath away
her smile and laughter fills me up and tickles me
I’m ecstatic just to look at her
listen to her or lay with her
she’s added sweetness to my existence
passion and poetry
pleasure and peace
I am grateful to God for her presence in my life
by mozayik “the souls’ poet”
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it’s a spiritual thing
I just need to clear my head
of the demons tormenting me
with sounds of past nightmares
and present day real or imagined harm
I am full
ready to pop
don’t want to drop
all my cares at every stop
need to breathe
to see me
I am blinded
by everyone else s importunities
craving aloneness
the only way I know to reach the part of me
that is free and filled with possibility
I just want to be unbound
in my mind is the only sanctuary to hide
until I can cope with difficulties outside of me
to have peace I have to touch the part of GOD that resides inside me
what I need can’t be found out there
I know it is hard to understand
the only way I know to get what I need
to deal with issues blinding me from what it is I am
silence is golden
solitude is good for the soul
it is a spiritual thing
don’t take it personally
it is all about me
needing
to let God lead me
by Mozayik “the souls’ poet”
give me a lover that will warm my heart not my bed
she doesn’t want to be led
and a follower
she won’t need me to be
side by side we will walk
heart to heart we will talk
soul to soul making love
this is the lover I dream of
knows when to be strong,
not afraid to show her vulnerability
will even weep with me
this lover will smile while looking into my eyes
will kiss me gently not always reaching for my thighs
she’ll treasure what is inside my mind not how I look
will remember just what it took to get me and will always do it to keep me
this lover knows I’m not looking for a cheap thrill
not looking for her mansion sitting on a hill
knows that all I need is her love that’s true
and for my love anything she will do
she’ll tell me he loves me at least once a day
fearing that if she doesn’t my desire will fade
she’ll care about the little things
like how important a hug can be
she’ll let me know that she respects me
she’ll take the time to remind me just how special I am
and how much she needs me
if this is the kind of lover that you are
then right now I’m wishing on a star
to guide you my way
by “the souls’ poet”
circa 1996
I honor the Mamie and Bertha in me
the image they continue to give me is one of possibility
these women stood tall, I never saw their backs break
a slight bend now and again
but never broken
I never saw them without what they needed
they showed me with hard work anything can be defeated
I am not afraid to break a sweat
so you have not even seen the best of me yet
I am like my Great Grandmother Bertha,
she walked through this world on her own terms
she paid the price to decide
when to prop up her feet and die to flesh
this is who I am
my grandmother Mamie did the same thing
you would always her saying
I will die before I lose my independence
and she left this world on her own terms
this is where I come from
backs do not break
we walk on through
our souls help us decide what to do
like their great, great, and great-granddaughter Melisa
even though they left her for dead
she has a mission
she will decide when it is time to go home
so I am going to be all right
this is where I come from
I have decided I have more work to do
more light to shine, more seeds to be sown before I go home
I am going to lay my burdens down
at Mamie, Bertha, Cara, Annie,
Essie and Margie’s feet
they are already free
and they are waiting for me to finish up this work
and come home and be free
by mozayik “the souls’ poet” 3.11.13
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