The guilty seek punishment. I have chosen to stop beating up on myself and declare myself not guilty. Being guilty suggests that I have done something wrong. I realize that I have done nothing wrong. My intentions when making the decisions that haunt me were pure.
I would be guilty if I’d made deliberate decisions with malice or ill will. Guilt says that I intentionally did harm and expected a bad result. Innocence suggests that the decision was made expecting a good outcome.
At the time that is what was best. Of course after years of experience I now have a 20/20 hindsight view. I dealt with life based on the knowledge and experience I had up till that moment.
So it is okay to let myself off the hook. I can forgive myself.
I can accept that I deserve love.
I am worthy of all things good.
I am much more than the sum of my choices.
When we know better we do better.
Forgiving myself opens the door to my ability to forgive others. It has been said
“In all your getting, get understanding”. Even when I don’t understand I trust the process. Love covers a multitude of sins.