Before therapy whenever I would feel depressed or have anxiety and feel guilty.
I would punish myself with negative thoughts. I would always think to myself “what is wrong with me?”.
After therapy I can’t remember the last time I had that thought. Because I know there is nothing wrong with me. I know I have not done anything wrong.
Something bad happened to me. Something very very bad happened to me. That is why I do hate I behaved the way I did in the past. What happened to me caused PTSD.
When I am triggered I am afraid, guarded, vigilant and I don’t trust anybody. I don’t feel safe and I feel the need to protect myself.
I spent most of my life on guard not trusting. PTSD is not what is wrong with me.
PTSD is what is the result of what happened to me.