Before therapy whenever I would feel depressed or have anxiety and feel guilty.

I would punish myself with negative thoughts. I would always think to myself “what is wrong with me?”.

After therapy I can’t remember the last time I had that thought. Because I know there is nothing wrong with me. I know I have not done anything wrong.

Something bad happened to me. Something very very bad happened to me. That is why I do hate I behaved the way I did in the past. What happened to me caused PTSD.

When I am triggered I am afraid, guarded, vigilant and I don’t trust anybody. I don’t feel safe and I feel the need to protect myself.

I spent most of my life on guard not trusting.  PTSD is not what is wrong with me.

PTSD is what is the result of what happened to me.

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