When your day starts with triggers? 

Some triggers can be anticipated and allows for preparation. There are those triggers though that kick you in the gut and knock you immediately into the past. Before therapy I carried the angry energy around me like a cloud sometimes for days. I had no idea what was happening to me because of what “happened to me” as a child. 

After therapy the knowledge of self and ptsd and what that looks like on me empowers me to use the skills learned and practiced in therapy to manage the fall out of triggers. 

I fully expect to one day laugh at a trigger and say, “I see you but you don’t faze me anymore.” Until then I will keep practicing what I learned in therapy. 

Shout out to my therapist of more than three years. ~Quandra Chaffers

https://www.aasect.org/member-spotlight-quandra-chaffers

#WorkYourFaith

​Before therapy I doubted if my vision for my life would be realized. PTSD would always stop me in my tracks because of the triggers. I dealt with the triggers by running from the situation causing the trigger. I was very unstable. Some situations actually made me feel as if I was in the past. Sexual Trauma suffered as a very young  child is so horrific that it is buried in the mind deeply because the child doesn’t even have words or images to explain what is happening to them. But the suppressed energy has to be brought to the surface and released. Therapy actually educates you on what is going on with the mind and body. It then helps to release those feelings and identify the why’s. Taking the punch out of the past allows for the space to unlearn coping skills that do not serve your highest good. Practicing new skills is the work still to be done to actually thrive. 

After Therapy I wake up every morning Thanking God for my vision finally being manifested. Those on the outside looking in have no idea the years I have persevered. The prayers, the tears and tenacity are what God honors. Faith without works is dead. These blessings are the fruit of never giving up on the vision God gave me for my life. I am able to be humble because God has blessed me to take the pain and turn it into my passion. Now that is how you know it’s your purpose. Me and God have been working on this vision for all of my life. Every trauma, every tear shed during healing and every mile walked to bus stops rain or shine to therapy every week (I rarely missed my session), hot or cold for three years has opened my soul up to healing. #blessed #truestorypoetry #HardWorkPaysOff

#ToGodBeTheGlory #TherapyWorks #FaithWorks #WorkYourFaith

Triggers “unchecked anger is dangerous, I know first hand”   

*my post from 2014*

On my way to my last therapy appointment in St Louis.   If you have PTSD you know that the events of the last week have created a crisis for us. We are dealing with all the crap that comes up in our minds, bodies and spirit. Anxiety, anger, hyper vigilance, easily startled, insomnia, flash backs, irritability  and for some we  can get stuck in the past and respond to the world as if events from the past are actually happening. This is traumatizing for us all, but some are not their normal selves.  I have been trying to stay away because it touches a place in me that I have a hard time coming back from.  “unchecked anger is dangerous, I know first hand.  

Unapologetically feeling (TherapyWorks) 

​Therapy is not an eraser. You don’t come out on the other side perfect. Therapy gives you understanding about self. When you learn new coping skills they MUST BE PRACTICED. Therapy helped me to be able to talk about what happened without it taking me under for weeks. The past still rears it’s ugly head but the difference is, now after therapy I use my tools that I learned work for me. I bounce back in minutes or hours but not days anymore. I honor my feelings and never apologize for having them. 

#TherapyWorks #Iamhappy